I’ve been wanting to find the word that describes my normal social behavior. I’m introverted. Thanks charlieissocoolike on Youtube. haha.

The way he described about his way of processing things and interacting with others as an introverted person really fit how I am. I can never really start a conversation with a stranger, nor do I talk a lot. In order for me to get talking is by something the other person says to get me into a talkative state. Honestly, I love talking and by judging the length of my emails and blog posts, there are a lot of things to express. I guess for me, I’m only willing to be chatty if someone is willing to listen.

Also, I like being around chatty people without being chatty myself. I like feeding off their energy to make me feel better. Though, I do feel awkward sometimes because I usually have nothing intelligent or interesting to say back.

I can’t take it anymore. Living in solitude has made me keep too many things to myself. It’s not good for my brain. I need to release and get over it.

I saw him once again, that graduate student that made me go incredibly obsessed Fall Quarter. It happened Saturday… well my entire Saturday was something. First, I went off to the farmer’s market downtown to buy kettle corn and to try the apple juice everyone had been raving about. Afterward, I set off on foot to explore downtown and left my bike parked by the farmer’s market. I came across a guy giving out recyclable bags at an apartment leasing office and since I felt cherry that day, I felt like giving him time to talk about the new apartments right next to campus. They’re really nice, energy efficient apartments with solar panels on the roof… but it’s expensive to live there. I also received pizza out of listening to him talk. Anyway, afterward, I lost track of what I was doing and decided to go to Bath and Body Works. On my way, I saw him.

He was on the other side of the street waiting to cross. While I crossed the street to go on the side he was, we made eye contact. It was a weird feeling. At first, I didn’t know if it was him so I thought he was just some stranger. My gosh, not only did he start talking to his friend that I knew it was him. The thoughts “You gave up on him, you let him go, move on already” went through my head while I followed behind him while crossing the street. Then, I sped up and walked past him and somehow he was still behind me for a good 5 minutes until I turned a corner to Bath and Body Works. My gosh, I felt so awkward. Immediately, I just stopped thinking about what just happened.

It wasn’t until Sunday that it hit me while I was at the gym running. Why is that I see him more often? I haven’t seen the people I let go last school year, that guy who I was crazy over (but ruined Valentine’s Day for me) or the friends who I called quits with. Why is that?

One more thing, I thought my reaction was something. I was in disbelief basically. There were so many times before that I thought I saw him on my way to class and panicked … but usually it wasn’t him.

And lastly, I’m taking another Food Science class this summer… will I see him once again?

Gee, if I just told him my name. We didn’t go by our English names in Chinese. I’ve said my English name maybe once or twice in the very beginning of the course, but he wouldn’t have picked it up and remembered. I only figured out his name because his Chinese name oddly resembled his English name.

-sigh- I feel better now. I’ve been wanting to get these thoughts out but I felt I’ve been sticking on the same subject too long.

It’s strange how inspiration hit me for Haneuri’s new look. I was watching Britney Spear’s MV Criminal and then it hit me. Something by the way her name and ‘Criminal’ was placed within the video inspired me. Incredible huh? I’ve been trying for 3 weeks now to create a new layout using the horizontal jquery scroll.

I titled the layout ‘Soft Dreams’ because the texture really gives a dreamy effect. Lol. I really put my own resources into use. This layout took over 10 hours I believe? Too many coding mishaps occurred and the server was acting up yesterday. Everything now updates smoothly. Strange. I really wonder what happened.

Anyway, check it out! It’s really fun to play with the links. ^^